I am not really good with showing or talking about my deep feelings, so this sucks….
A very emotional time for me is the time I moved back from Florida to Virginia. Even though I lived in Virginia all my life, I made Florida my home. When I left, I left behind my best friends, memories and major opportunities. Words can not describe the frustration, the anger and the sadness I was feeling.
The day I left Florida was a Tuesday in July. We spent all day packing and shopping. It was hectic. I was dragging my feet all day and not cooperating whatsoever with my mom to get stuff done. I wanted to spend my last day with my best friends Evony and Bianca, but they were in Palm Beach at the moment visiting family. Stephanie was Colombia and Richie was at work….I was so lonely. The phone wouldn’t stop ringing with people calling me telling me good-bye but I didn’t care about them. A few hours later, I would be packed up and gone.
Do you have any idea what I missed/missing out on? I’m missing out on the most “gangster” school in South Florida: Fort Pierce Central. They are known for their sports. If I were to go there, I would have graduated a year and a half early with honors AND an associates degree. FPC is DEFINITELY more school spirited and crunk than CHS. You know what else? I missed out on a number of famous people, concerts, trips to Disney World and other water parks, my friends’ birthday parties, my godson’s birth and seeing my best friends everyday.
If you still don’t understand why I was so upset, think of this:
You are in a place that is real nice. It is just the right temperature. It is really pretty. There are fun things to do all around you. In school you don’t have to try to fit in, everyone just loves you even though you are loud, obnoxious and clueless at times. When you miss school, everyone misses you and they appreciate you when you do something for them.
Once we were packed and pulling out of the driveway, I was crying. I was going to miss all of loveliness in my life. I am reminded of it everyday when Evony calls me and tells me about everything that is going on. I’m missing out on EVERYTHING.
My mom didn’t understand why I was so upset and she still doesn’t. I mean, why should I be upset when I’m back to where I grew up and have all my friends and family? Well, in two years, I had made Florida my home. I guess I was just not ready to leave.
Life sucks.
Even though I left Florida, I am happy to be back in Charlottesville with my lovely life long friends. I am happy to be at CHS and I am happy that I took my trip out of country.
Charlottesville needs a Wal-Mart….a better and bigger Wal-Mart. (with everyday low prices) haha.
You know what else I miss? The candy painted cars, the delicious food, boys with dreads who be rocking the gold grills…..Sexiness.
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The title made me laugh.
How old were you when you moved to Florida?
"Stephanie was Colombia "??
Show us that you were lonely rather than saying you were so lonely. What were doing doing? Were you staring out the window? Laying on the bare floor in your room? ...?
You say you're so upset about leaving your friends and then you say you don't care about them??
Trip out of the country?
I like how you end with humor.
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